Beautiful Chaos

My week usually consists of balancing school, work, babysitting, cheering my little brother’s on at their basketball games, more school, running, church, youth, spending time with my family, and trying to maintain a social life. Many days I find myself laying in bed at midnight questioning where the time went. I think many people can relate. It seems as if there are not enough hours in the day. We find ourselves racing through everyday and lay down at night remembering all the things that we didn’t do. And the next morning we wake up just to do it all over again. I often look at my schedule and wonder where does God come in? Intentionally spending time with God has to be a priority, and I am discovering how to be certain that I allow time each day to focus on God alone. When I begin and end each day with time with God, even if it’s just for five minutes, it helps me to focus on God throughout the day. When I go through my day focused on my true purpose, I find myself seeking God, recognizing opportunities to share his love, and praying in the middle of my crazy life.  I’m finding what it means to really live in God’s presence. When I am living in God’s presence, in his grace, I find that everything else I do flows from that. Despite the busyness around me, I have discovered a sense of peace and rest in the arms of God. I see God’s beauty in the small moments. I see his hand print in the world around me. I hear his voice. I’m far from perfect. I make mistakes. I get stressed and overwhelmed. But I’m learning. I’m learning to find rest and peace in God. I’m learning to find God in the midst of the chaos around me. I’m learning that worship isn’t just during church on Sunday’s, but it’s living every moment of every day in awe of God. I’m learning to seek God and to truly know him.  I’m learning to live each day totally absorbed in the presence of God. I’m learning to ‘live in the shelter of the Most High’ and to ‘find rest in the shelter of the almighty‘. I’m learning to see the beauty in chaos. 

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. (‭Psalms‬ ‭91‬:‭1‬)


2 thoughts on “Beautiful Chaos

  1. Beautiful, inspiring words here, Emma. I find myself truly comforted by reading through your posts. Thank you for these awesome reminders of what His grace and love does for us and our lives!

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